Wednesday, February 13, 2008

a revelation...

i have had a revelation tonight...i have been struggling with mary maddox and grady lately. i am not sure if it is just a tough age for them, or that they are so close in age, or if it is that i have been doing so much with them since john has been studying, or maybe it's that i am just not patient enough. whatever the reason, tonight i realized something...these two kids of mine are amazing! i need to open up my eyes and never forget that it is my job to love, nurture, protect, mold, and teach these little brilliant people.

so, what led me to this revelation, might you ask? we went to our montessori open house tonight. mm is in the toddler class this year and will be moving to the primary class next year and grady will be in the toddler class. we went to visit and i spent 2 hours there in total awe. i couldn't believe that the two wild children that i walked in with were the ones that i watched in these classrooms. grady was going to get activities off of the shelf and sitting down to play with them. mm was so independent and worked her way around her class showing me how she was learning what animals go with what letters and the sounds that they make and learning her continents! (by the way, we live in north world, which i thought was so fitting!) i couldn't believe what i was seeing. it made me realize that i shouldn't be frustrated by the kids...they are just kids...i should be frustrated with me! now...the challenge will be fixing it!

little brains like this one are so much more efficient then mine (and most adults) which gets all foggy with the stuff that isn't really that important.


p.s. - i am sorry for the heavy post...i am sure i will be back tomorrow with the usual stuff!

2 comments:

Kerri said...

It is hard to stop, relax, and enjoy. We only do the best we can!

Sinead said...

Oh, I know exactly what you mean! There are many days when I am incredibly frustrated by Maggie's independence and stubbornness and Katie's "go go go" personality. Sometimes I think that it's so hard to really enjoy these moments when you're right in the middle of them, especially when, like you, you are right in the middle of them all by yourself lots thanks to a partner who's working or studying a lot or who's living in a different part of the state because you're moving. It's easy to just get frustrated in the day-to-day stuff and not enjoy all the little moments. That's why Mom and Dad love being grandparents so much--they can savor the moments and not get caught up in the day-to-day raising of the children. :)

Still, though, MM and G are amazing little people and you and John are doing a terrific job! Love you!